Mixed Feelings
So, I hinted at a big piece of news on twitter last night and this morning - so here it is. I got the teaching job at Georgia State I interviewed for.
On the one hand, I'm overjoyed. It means 1) I don't have to feel like a total failure for not getting into a PhD program this year, and 2) I have a much better paying job than my current one. I can leave my cube job behind, move on to do what I want to do with the rest of my life, etc.
On the other, I'm both embarrassed and sort of depressed about it. I had a good friend also apply for the job, and he didnt get it. I feel like a bit of a prick that I got it and he didnt, because he's just as deserving of it as I am. Too, it means leaving the job I currently have, and love, even if it isnt what I want to do with my life. I feel as if I'm abandoning my boss, though I am trying to get her a good replacement. So, I am sort of left with this odd feeling of guilt and regret on having gotten this job.
I'm sort of bleh now, but happy bleh.
On the one hand, I'm overjoyed. It means 1) I don't have to feel like a total failure for not getting into a PhD program this year, and 2) I have a much better paying job than my current one. I can leave my cube job behind, move on to do what I want to do with the rest of my life, etc.
On the other, I'm both embarrassed and sort of depressed about it. I had a good friend also apply for the job, and he didnt get it. I feel like a bit of a prick that I got it and he didnt, because he's just as deserving of it as I am. Too, it means leaving the job I currently have, and love, even if it isnt what I want to do with my life. I feel as if I'm abandoning my boss, though I am trying to get her a good replacement. So, I am sort of left with this odd feeling of guilt and regret on having gotten this job.
I'm sort of bleh now, but happy bleh.
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