in my field of paper flowers
and candy clouds of lullaby
i lie inside myself for hours
and watch my purple sky fly over me
[Evanescence - Imaginary] Sometimes, I have to wonder about the winamp random player. Twice since I got to work, its played this song, one of my favorite Evanescence songs, but one I usually save for when I'm feeling very blissful. I guess, I am, in a way, feeling like that. I had a smoothie for breakfast (mmm sucrose and honey) and I guess the sugar buzz is settling in.
[Bauhouse - Hollow Hills] And what is with the Lovecraftian theme my day seems to be taking already? Maybe its that I'm feeling a sort of connection to things today, different from usual, a feeling that I've mannaged to tap back into that Universal thing that usually keeps me going, that sense that, no matter what, the universe does Right by its self, and I am a leaf in its river, helpless but minutely influential in its patterns. So many people would feel so hopeless and scared at that image, but I am somehow comforted by it. I guess, by the fact that no matter what I do, nothing I do can destroy everything, at least directly. Others, others I know, could stop the flow of the river with a thought - me, I am just a leaf, adrift in its wash, only able to stop the flow were there thousands of times my effort applied. Its a good thing to know you can't break things too badly.
* * *
2:30 already. Oy. Work goes by so fast it seems. Nice to have a job I enjoy doing enough that I don't notice the time passing when I am working. Had to rearange some things in the office, namely run a cable behind the shelves so we could finally get use of all 4 ports in the office for a connection. Now we have double that, thanks to a cute little Linksys switch which is hiding behind this behemoth of a 21" flat pannel that goes with the system I'm working on. Dell makes some nice stuff, I'll give em that.
Chugging along, pondering lunch. Not sure what I'll get, probably a sandwitch. Eh, its food.
Still have some coding work I need to do, as well as some database homework I need to finish up, and write a memo for. And stuff I have to do that I would usually do tomorrow, but I wolnt have time for then. Ugh. Stupid daily summaries. Sooo much work to do. Oy. Or at least it feels like its trying to pile up. Not sure if it really is or not. The illusitory state of stress is a strange thing.
[KMFDM - Risen] My playlist is being weird agian. 3rd time for this song this afternoon. You'd think out of 64 songs, it would actually vary a little. Eh.
and candy clouds of lullaby
i lie inside myself for hours
and watch my purple sky fly over me
[Evanescence - Imaginary] Sometimes, I have to wonder about the winamp random player. Twice since I got to work, its played this song, one of my favorite Evanescence songs, but one I usually save for when I'm feeling very blissful. I guess, I am, in a way, feeling like that. I had a smoothie for breakfast (mmm sucrose and honey) and I guess the sugar buzz is settling in.
[Bauhouse - Hollow Hills] And what is with the Lovecraftian theme my day seems to be taking already? Maybe its that I'm feeling a sort of connection to things today, different from usual, a feeling that I've mannaged to tap back into that Universal thing that usually keeps me going, that sense that, no matter what, the universe does Right by its self, and I am a leaf in its river, helpless but minutely influential in its patterns. So many people would feel so hopeless and scared at that image, but I am somehow comforted by it. I guess, by the fact that no matter what I do, nothing I do can destroy everything, at least directly. Others, others I know, could stop the flow of the river with a thought - me, I am just a leaf, adrift in its wash, only able to stop the flow were there thousands of times my effort applied. Its a good thing to know you can't break things too badly.
* * *
2:30 already. Oy. Work goes by so fast it seems. Nice to have a job I enjoy doing enough that I don't notice the time passing when I am working. Had to rearange some things in the office, namely run a cable behind the shelves so we could finally get use of all 4 ports in the office for a connection. Now we have double that, thanks to a cute little Linksys switch which is hiding behind this behemoth of a 21" flat pannel that goes with the system I'm working on. Dell makes some nice stuff, I'll give em that.
Chugging along, pondering lunch. Not sure what I'll get, probably a sandwitch. Eh, its food.
Still have some coding work I need to do, as well as some database homework I need to finish up, and write a memo for. And stuff I have to do that I would usually do tomorrow, but I wolnt have time for then. Ugh. Stupid daily summaries. Sooo much work to do. Oy. Or at least it feels like its trying to pile up. Not sure if it really is or not. The illusitory state of stress is a strange thing.
[KMFDM - Risen] My playlist is being weird agian. 3rd time for this song this afternoon. You'd think out of 64 songs, it would actually vary a little. Eh.
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