Its weird, trying to work out emotions and loyalties and friendships. People complicate life, and the closer you let someone get, the more they complicate things. Competition, even when it doesnt mean to be competition, happens, and it can shatter things without anyone realizing it. Jelousy, envy, spite, bitterness - all these things are waiting in the shadows. Should I worry about them, try to prevent them? But even if I do, it really will be the outcome of things that determines if jelousy and envy of someone was a productive motivator.
I wonder, I really do, what the shape of my life will be this time next year, when I graduate.