Its bad to wake up out of a semi normal night of dreams back into a world that feels like a bad nightmare. I'll probably be late to class, but I need to write this down.

I fell asleep last night wondering if it would be the last night I ever sleep in my bed at home. Things go from bad to worse, and then repeat. Should I leave this place, this familar two rooms I call home, and the safety and security of the control and money of my parents - the question runs through my head a thousand times a second. Could I really get by on the $700 a month I make, paying rent and utilites, gas and groceries? I know I could get by on that ammount not having to pay rent without a problem. But the option of living in the place I could not have to pay rent...how much would that cost me out of the rest of my life? I have an option where I would be paying rent...but again... could I get by?

This is the cliff I am standing at the edge of. If I jump... I can't fly back to the top. And I have no idea if there are sharp rocks or pillows waiting at the bottom. Or if there will even be anything to grab hold of on the way down to stop the fall if I dont like what I see at the bottom so I can climb back up.